stroller, the looking at the fish, playing with toys, buying a new toy (shhh...I am to allowed to spoil her). Nothing was working.... then there was a magical moment around 2 PM when I decided to eat lunch. We were eating in the main lobby and she was looking at an awesome Dr. Seuss painting exhibit when she started to drift off. And just as her eyes closed....
DRUMS!!!! DRUMS!!!! DRUMS!!!!
Two Dragons began dancing, and drummers drumming....and in slow motion I watched, as Zoë's lower lip stuck out, then curled down, then she shut her eyes, turned red....and let out a wale!
It is the year of the Dragon, and in the Chinese Zodiac this is the luckiest year. Zeppo was born under the sign of
the Fire Dragon, and this year is a Water Dragon. Water is represented of intelligence and wisdom, flexibility, softness and pliancy. It can be cause for difficulty in choosing something and sticking to it when in over-abundance,
however it can be powerful (flooding, erosion, etc..) Water governs the Kidney, Urinary Bladder, and is associated with the Ears and Bones! It can cause fear, and anxiety, but also be calming.
Well isn't that all just too coincidental?
Here my baby is fighting for her life in the luckiest year. She is under a water sign, and it matches up with the same parts of her body that are being strained by the cancer, and the chemo. I am not one to read too much into astrology...but sometimes you have to wonder. Could there just be something to the zodiac?
So why not look further...Zoë was born under the Metal Rabbit. Metal is considered to be firm, rigid, it has persistence, strength and determination. The metal person is controlling, ambitious, forceful and set in their ways as
metal is very strong; and they are self-reliant and prefer to handle their problems alone. The metal person is also materialistic, business oriented and good at organization and stability. However the metal person can also appreciate luxury and enjoy the good things in life. Just as metal can conduct electricity, the Metal person has strong impulses and generative powers and can bring about changes and transformations for those who come into contact with them. Well...if I was not a believer before how can I not be now? Does this not describe my Zoë?
As determined as ever Zoë got her way, and we left the lobby even if I wanted to watch the Dragons dance and play catch with the crowd.
Today was a nice quiet day. Zoë only had one test (ultrasound), and she slept through half of it, and then fell asleep after the other half was over! She slept for more than half the day, giving me so much time that I nearly have her website complete!
The Game Plan:
Zoë's ultrasound today looked great. This means that she will have the left nephrostomy tube removed, and the right one replaced. When....who knows. I thought that they were going to rush to do it this week, but then the doctors don't seem to be rushing. In the meantime I wish someone would rush to get the catheter removed! So I will be rushing the doctors in the morning.
Monday Zoë will have her big MRI scan to see how well this round of chemo is doing. Lots of positive energy, and prayers between now and Monday please. Tuesday the doctors will have a big team meeting to include, nutrition,
oncology, urology, surgery, and more I am sure, to get a more accurate game plan for her treatment.
The doctors are anxious to start planning her surgery. Because this type of cancer is known to get smart, break off, and travel around the body. The faster they can remove the tumor the less there is to get smart. The issue is that
they still have not determined where this tumor is growing from. They have some speculations, but want a more concrete answers. The surgeons also need the tumor to be a more manageable size for removal.
Originally the doctors thought that surgery would be involved after the 4th or 5th round of chemo. Now that they are being brought into the conversation after round two which tells me that Zoë is doing remarkably well. It pains me
to think that my little girl will be cut open, and yet I cannot wait for it to happen. I am not yet ready to see her in post surgery pain. I know what it is like personally and I hate to think of her having to go through it.
My Game Plan:
I plan on doing some extra meditation, and soul centering before the day of her operation. I found the chapel here, and they have meditation pillows! *smiles* To keep busy I also have the website to build (I so cannot wait to
reveal it to you all!!!!) Paperwork to do....oh and taxes to figure out.... Anyone know a good tax person? I was such a pro at the long form. Then I got married, had a kid, and had a kid get sick all in the same year. I have a
feeling that it will be a wee bit more complex this year than last...
Well folks time for me to drift off....and get Puff the Magic Dragon unstuck from my head....Maybe I will put it in your head instead....
This post was brought to you tonight by Peter, Paul, and Mary.
Love and Hugs!